Welcome, 2010!

I've met the new year and decade with a cold. Hopefully this groggy head and stuffed up nose will clear up by tomorrow. I've been on vacation from work for the last two weeks and loved every minute of it. Unfortunately, within those two weeks I only did laundry once and worked out never. And to think I actually thought I could pull off some "Biggest Loser" numbers. You know - go to the gym and be there for like 8 hours a day, just like the show, and lose some incredible poundage. Well, I'm not saying that wouldn't work, I'm just saying that it would probably work a lot better if I had actually stepped inside the gym :-x

My friend, Veronica, and I are determined to get this weight loss thing done in the new year. We want to do it right. I don't want no fancy schmancy, new, fandangled weight loss gimmick. We're doing it the hard way - the right way - with lots of exercise and eating right. Wish us luck! She purchased some journals for us to track our progress and feelings for every day. We're even planning on meeting once a week and having our own kind of "support" group. Who knows, maybe we'll get more people involved, maybe not. Either way, I know it's going to be good for me because I need more accountability. Apparently I don't care enough about losing weight since I keep doing nothing for myself!

I'm tired of wearing so much clothing because I'm too uncomfortable in my own skin. I'm tired of being out of breath walking upstairs to a work meeting. I'm tired of never wanting to look at a profile shot of myself because the person I see disgusts me. blahblahblah. I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired. So why haven't I made the changes? I'm sure there's an underlying reason. But then again, I'm one of the first people who hates hearing "childhood reasons" or any of that other hogwash. I can honestly say I've been lazy lately. Yes, different things have been happening in my life, but I admit that I've gotten comfortable with my man and our lifestyle, and I've let my weight get away from me. Lazy; so now I'm fat and lazy. Why should I expect others to take me seriously, when I can't take my weight problem seriously? Ok, now I'm just repeating what I probably heard on TV. LOL But it sounded good, right? Anyhoo, here we go again. Another year gone by, another slate wiped clean, time to make something happen.

I'm going to kill it in 2010.

Breakfast: Cheerios with ff milk, cheerios, apple 275.1 cals
Lunch: McD's Southwest Salad with grilled chicken 420 cals
Snack: Asian pear 55.1 cals
Dinner: Chicken noodle soup with grilled chicken salad 405.4 cals
Glasses of water: 10
Vitamins? Yes
Total: 1155.6 cals

Home Workouts

Has anyone tried P90X? No, I didn't buy it - I'm way too broke for that, especially during the holidays, but my friend let me borrow her DVDs. I've seen the infomercial plenty of times, and each time it gets me pumped to get off my behind... but now that I have the DVDs in hand, it's really intimidating!!!

3 Things I like about myself:
1. I like being able to put worries to the side when I'm around kids
2. I like being responsible with my money
3. I like that I can take care of all of my bills every month when it always seems like an impossibility

2 Compliments given:
1. I told the new girl she's doing a great job and it will get easier.
2. I told the older ladies at work who are best friends that they have an awesome friendship, and I'm glad I could witness and understand it. (And then I started to cry because my best work bud is gone).

My first "Beautiful You" Post

3 Things I like about myself:
1. I like that I can be honest with people
2. I have nice choppers
3. I'm a confidante

2 Compliments given
1. I told my boyfriend that I'm thankful he's such a wonderful manly man and takes such great care of me.
2. I told our marketing coordinator what a great job she was doing with putting our benefit event together

Catch-Up

Up until last week, I had been going to the gym every day. Not eating right like I should. I've been too engrossed in my newfound glory of actually being able to cook. Who knew it could be so easy and fun LOL. Sad right, I had to be almost 30 before I actually started cooking from a recipe and even trying to make something good. Turns out I have a knack for it and make some really delish stuff!! - all not a great thing for someone who's trying to lose weight.

A few good friends are in transition with their lives right now, both moving. One moving out of town, the other moving within town, but for a worse reason - because her husband (soon-to-be-ex) is a drug addict. An oxycontin addict, to be exact, who has brought her to her lowest. She has to move out of her house because he's stolen everything from her and her daughters. Items from the house to pawn, all her savings, all her kids' savings, and has caused her to fall several months behind on her mortgage payments. Luckily she was able to secure someone to rent the house while her and her children moved out. Her husband's just a disgusting excuse for a human being, and that's me being nice. Needless to say, there's been a lot of drama lately and I'm so looking forward to it ending.

It's the last few days of Loli at work with me. It's been fun. We have a new publisher who came from Oregon. He seems like a nice guy. I haven't really gotten a chance to talk to him yet, besides when he pulled my ad director and me to his office first thing Monday morning to discuss why I was upset last week. Yeah, that was really fun. (No, not really). I should go talk to him myself, by myself, so he can see what I'm all about. I've been putting it off. It's probably unnecessary. As you can see, I'm trying to psyche myself out here.

The new girl doesn't take any notes. She said "You'll probably be really annoyed when I'm asking you how to do stuff over and over." Next time she says that, and she will, I'll say, "You're right. You should probably take more notes!" Ok, so that's the plan.

Tonight we're going to ThinkPink, a fundraiser for the Cancer Connection that my company is sponsiring. I got pink hair for the event,. but I couldn't find a pink tie for the man. There's going to be food, auctions, bands, dancing, and art. I'm looking forward to it. Next weekend will be my 30th birthday, so it's just fun stuff leading up to that point. 30. Scary.

We've had lots of visitors at the house lately and I love it. The house is constantly full of aromatic smells and wonderful loved ones. And the holidays are fast approaching so it will be a long constant. I'm not complaining. I'm just giving my excuse now, is all!!!

Morning workout: hour cardio, 837 calories
Breakfast: ff milk with cheerios, ff cup of milk to drink, apple
Snack: apple, string cheese
Lunch: slice of pineapple pizza, cup of rice with cabbage and peppers
Afternoon workout: lifting, 485 calories
Dinner: pork with udon noodles, cabbage and rice
Dessert: small slice of satin pie

Really?

Holy. Im at a grand opening barbecue for a new local business, Jim Kelly State Farm, nice people - so im snarfing down my burger, reading things on different business doors till im in front of one. It's freakin weight watchers and the people inside have seen me and opened the door. "Hi, I'm eating a burger while I read your information on weightloss."

"We have a meeting tomorrow." Ugh! I ended up requesting a brochure, as you can see in this picture of me back at work. It reads "Welcome to Weight Watchers!"

Psh!

Reminder to self: Pluck eyebrows and wear makeup before taking more pics. Oh, and lose weight.

- from my celly